my grind, my mind.

as the christmas tree goes up, and my bathing suits grow cobwebs on them.. my papers pile up and begin to fall. as much as i enjoyed my break, i know i have so much things left on my plate that i need to finish. as i await for college acceptance letters, i must finish my private school applications and apply for as many scholarships as i can. allfemale’s movin up and our first performance is coming up. my capstone project with arianne is slowly coming into play..due feb. 13. asb still has so much things to do, and i hope we get to complete all of them. the pressure to do good is insane! my one year anniversary with noel is in a week, but im still not quite sure ill get to see my boy. </3 its okay. im totally over it. i love him & seeing him all break just made it all the more real to me. as much as im tired and want the year to be over, the reality check of me being a senior.. and my last year of highschool.. comes to my mind. im not “living it up” the way all my friends are.. with all the crazy parties and seshing (not that that’s bad.. cause ive actually been to some.. but just watched).. but im “making a living” and trying to find something to do with my life. its not bad, but sometimes i wish i could party.. or be hella chill and laid back. i get tired of always having something to do.. and always having to “pencil in” people.

so here’s to sleepless nights, empty stomachs, eyebags, and maybe some fun in between. see you in three weeks, winter break. i look forward to sleeping.

sirjoshizzle:

cayleneey:

letthetruthbetold:

hippocrick:

woahitssarrah:firebackonyourtongue:angvond:maryclare:

I hopped off the train Hogwarts Express
With my scar and no family left
Welcome to the school of wizard love
Am I gonna fit in?

Jumped in a boat
Here I am for the first time
Look to my right and I see the castle shine
This is all so crazy
Everybody thinks I’m famous!

My stomach’s churning and I’m feeling kinda anxious
Too much staring and I’m nervous
That’s when McGonnagall put on the Sorting Hat
And it shouted “GRYFFINDOR!”
And it shouted “GRYFFINDOR!”
And it shouted “GRYFFINDOR!”

I throw my wand out
I conjure a spell
And Voldemort goes away
Laughing with Ron like yeah
Hermione like yeah
I got my wand up
I conjure a spell
I know I’ll be a great auror
YEEEAAAAHHHHH. Stupid dark arts just go away
YEEEAAAAHHHHH. Stupid dark arts just go away

Got caught flying all unwatched
Everybody’s looking at me now
Like “Who’s that dude who’s flying there?
Maybe he should play Quittich.”

Not so hard to find that dog, fluffy
It’s definately guarding something very secret
But all I see are it’s three heads
Thank god Hermione’s so clever!

My stomach’s churning and I’m feeling kinda scared now
Too much drooling and I’m running
That’s when that Mr. Filch almost caught us there
But we ran back to safety
But we ran back to safety
But we ran back to safety

So, I throw my wand out
I conjure a spell
And Voldemort goes away
Laughing with Ron like yeah
Hermione like yeah
I got my want up
I conjure a spell
I know I’ll be a great auror
YEEEAAAAHHHHH! Stupid dark arts just go away.
YEEEAAAAHHHHH! Stupid dark arts just go away.

Feel like finding that red stone (that red stone)
Through the Devil’s Snare tonight (Snare tonight)
Find the key that fits the door (fits the door)
Ron beats Wizard Chess and I feel alright!
So I throw my wand out
I conjure a spell
And Voldemort goes away
Quirrel’s two heads like yeah
Sorcerer’s Stone like yeah
I got my wand up
Look in the mirror
I know I have the rock right here.
YEEEAAAAHHHHH! I made Voldemort go away!
YEEEAAAAHHHHH! I made Voldemort go away!
YEEEAAAAHHHHH! I made Voldemort go away!

(Alot of credit to prettyproblematic)

I think Kate would love this song LOL

Not when I sang it AND IT WORKED.

jcoronel23:

fyoud:

the late night phone calls
the whisper so my parents wont hear us
the “Don’t fall asleep on the phone on me”
the “No, you hang up! ok 1 2 3 bye… YOU DIDNT HANG UP”
the “Hold on, I have to switch ears, this one is getting sore. Ok back, what were you saying?
the triple digit numbers on your phone bill
the endless texts back and forth
the trying to multitask while trying to balance the phone on your shoulder and ear
the friend asking what you’re doing, “I’m on the phone with her” “Reeeeeet, go fuck already!” hahaha, fuck you =D
the games, would you rather, if you could, whats your favourite, etc.
the laughs
the tears
the endless hours of silence
but the feeling of being together
the sound of her voice, comforting and relaxing.
yeah, all those countless nights after 2am, nothing tops that feeling.

cyreneee:

I will definitely still be thankful for the food set out before me, but I’ll be a little sad to be honest. LOL.

RIGHT. ham’s my favorite. sometimes i dont even eat the turkey. haha.

cyreneee:

lovekpham:

The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and challenged your ever view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. the ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself.

The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that god exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. the ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.

The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.

The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank him for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your crap when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love him, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing him. the ones that remind you love lost is better than never having loved at all.

(via poeticheartache)

when i cant find the words to say, this kinda says it all.. and im kinda glad it did, cause i have no time to come up with something beautiful anymore.

xmichelleeanne:

We all look for the holding hands, kissing, cuddling, hugging, and all that lovey dovey stuff. But beyond that, maintaining a relationship is hard because of all the things that could go wrong along the way.

To be honest, when i do get into a relationship i want it to be imperfect. I want us to argue. I want you to disagree with me, sometimes. Because it proves how much you’d wanna stay after everything. If you don’t, then im sorry. There’s always going to be better girls than me. But he who does, will keep that in mind and still disregard that thought.

im in love with noel mandal. hi, if you’re reading this. we’ve been going through so much shit and i just wanna say that im thankful for having you as my boyfriend and sticking it out with me. im not ready to give up any time soon.. and i hope you wont either.

i miss you telling me to close my eyes while you drive in circles only to end up at a park that was a block away. i miss sitting at benches only to walk back to your car because there were lots of ants. i miss laughing at you choose a song to play on repeat for like 5 times while we talked. i miss playing rock paper scissors and kicking your ass. i miss making videos in parking lots cause we could never decide where to go. i miss you kissing my forehead to tell me that everything’s going to be alright.

i miss.. you. :(