i really want to say “i hate when things change without my approval!” but that would be incredibly stupid and childish for me to say. lets face it, things are always going to happen that you wish didn’t. i make this frustrated face every now and then and i laugh at myself for it. i complain. i complain a lot. my boyfriend reminds me that all the time, but i dont realize it until i hate myself. kinda like eating, but thats not the point. so here’s what im babbling about:

i got an email from my boss today telling me how many hours i’ve worked and how many hours she can give me. with work-study, the government only allocates you a certain amount of money (and nothing over). 

Beginning Balance - $1800

Hours worked – 105 (at $10.50 per hour) = $1102.50

Remaining - $697.50

Remaining hours – 66 hours

so, i will be working 7 hours a week during winter quarter therefore killing all of my hours and work-study money. i understand and am grateful that the government is willing to give me $1800, but THEY DIDNT JUST HAND IT TO ME. i work for my money, and it shouldn’t matter how many hours i have left, but how long i want to work for them. i love my job. its crazy, because i never thought i’d enjoy filing and being infront of a computer all day, but i love being with the people around me and seeing students walk in every hour eager to get help on their papers. when i was a kid, i just wanted to be a receptionist and answer phones. THATS WHAT I DO NOW. and once spring quarter hits, i wont be allowed to work at the writing center anymore because they can only pay me if i have work-study.

so now, i can either
1) try and figure out how i can still keep my job for the whole year.
2) find a new job for spring quarter (which means probably work at the gym again -___- which has many pros and cons)
3) just not work during spring quarter and be hellla broke, in hopes i get hired to work during the summer in san diego.

i hate how materialistic i can get when it comes to money, but i like being able to buy other people things and I like the feeling of walking into a restaurant and not worrying about whether or not my card will be declined. i admit, i shouldn’t have worked so many hours during fall quarter, but i did it so i could have an amazing anniversary in december (WHICH I DID AND IM SO HAPPY AND ALL MY LONG HOURS WERE SOOOO WORTH IT.) i just wish i could still work at my job without me having work-study. it would just make everything all the more easier.